For days now I have been in a funk. I did not want to write a blog because I wanted to continue the funny theme, even if a bit self bashing ( hey better than bashing others...enough sad people out there doing that). Nightly I would come up with wonderful titles. I would come up with an outline and even chuckle to myself. In the morning however I would get up, click on the blog, fog would move into my brain and all ideas would dissipate. I would stare at a blank screen and just click it off and go back to the couch or out for a walk. A new friend asked what the underlying sadness under my cheer was. I realized I was really not fooling anyone, except myself of course. I personally blamed it on hormones. They are raging at the moment. So I can hardly be blamed for my emotions being all over, seeping out at the edges...no matter how hard I try to stuff them all down, put them in a box and let God handle it.
Today, was no different as far as how it started...battling a cold, raging hormones, stuck in four walls cause of cold weather , brain fog thick as ever. I fixed my coffee, grabbed a bite to eat, not really in the mood for either. I watched my recorded Gayle King show...and then too stir crazy to watch more tv, logged on to the computer. I took care of of my Twitter. Got rid of all the spammers and collectors...really once again wishing my followers would chat back! Say hello. I logged onto Facebook, and I was scrolling down when I saw a post from The Oprah Show.
It had a link and it said this was "my" chance, my last chance for Oprah to "hook me up" ! I was just praying last night to the good Lord as to what I should do about what I had been praying for. Should I change it? Was I on the right path? Should I not really give up, but change the tactic that I had been using as it had not been working. Nothing in that area of life had really changed. Should I simply concentrate on being happy and accepting my health and doing what I could for myself. I was truly ready to just do that...wanted to do that...needing to concentrate on other things....so many other things are truly more important than if I have teeth or not. It seems that God has different plans. So though it may be a long shot, I clicked on the link, and I wrote in again. I guess it is all about not giving up, or in...not letting go of your dreams no matter how big they are, no matter how out of the box , no matter how unreachable it may seem.